Monday, November 05, 2007

It hurts!

Since Gareth died, I just haven't had anything to write about. Things I used to enjoy (like blogging) just seem so irrelevant now.

I have always sympathised with people who have lost a loved one but I never imagined how difficult it would be to bear the tremendous grief that comes with the sudden, unexpected loss of a brother in the prime of his life.

This grief is like an unbearable weight that never seems to lift. It comes in waves. Its effects are profound. There are good days and bad days. Life goes on but it will never be the same again. The world somehow seems just a little bit darker.

I know Gareth is having a ball! He is with his Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. He is rejoicing, reunited with Laddie, Nana and all the others who went before him. I know that we will meet again when my time comes, but I miss him so much! I am so grateful for the wonderful memories. Memories which I will treasure forever.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Having lost my parents I have some inkling of the loss you feel, but not having any siblings I can only imagine how much worse it must be.

Unknown said...

Having my only parent, my mother, also taken suddenly while i was still basically a teenager, the world became a very small and dark place.

Your pain and grief will lift, slowly, but it will lift. I believe that there was a line in my grieving that was the turning point for my recovery. That line was the point where I could stop mourning her death and start celebrating her life.

You were there for me when this happened (almost 7 years ago) which helped me in my struggle - for that i will always be grateful - so bask in the love of your children, wife, and everyone else who loves you, and soon, you too will find your turning point...

Wayne said...

Thanks guys. Your words are an encouragement!

Unknown said...

as the anniversary of your brothers crash draws close i today have to reflect on the fact that i missed him on the 9th (sunday) when he popped out to the farm on his bike to see my wife and i , i was working and missed Gareth , when my wife told me he had come around i thought i would see him soon either in the sky or perhaps if he landed for a quick coffee or chat , your brother was and still is a special man and at this time i reflect on his friendship and amazing spirit although he has left us he lives on in all who knew him in some special way , god bless and may the joy of Gareth's life give you peace at this time.

alan king

Wayne said...

Thanks Alan

Anonymous said...

Hi Woopoo,
I cannot imagince how it must feel to lose a brother, I myself couldn't even ponder the thought of life without my sisters. Being a sibling is a special bond that you share that goes beyond blood.
But having had Gareth in my life though only for a short while made it richer. There were times where I could have strangled him with my bare hands and in the very next breath loved him to death. He was always so driven and excitable, life with him was an adventure. Even mundane tasks were fun. I miss him every moment and as 4 pm draws close I feel I cannot breath and cannot carry on, as exactly a year ago Monday afternoon I received the worst call of my life from your Dad.

I believe that G is happy, but cannot imagine ever being happy again without him.

I love you guys and am glad I have you as my family.

With all my love your only sister.

Lee

Wayne said...

I share every bit of pain with you Lee. I ache when I recall that terrible day which changed our lives forever. I miss Gag so much. He had a unique zest for life and a deep love for family that was truly inspirational. You will find happiness again. It just takes time. Love you!

Unknown said...

Time marches on and sometime memmories fail us but one picture can remind us of a special time or person. We are all thinking of your family at this time and send our love to all.
The Kings ( now in UK)